Thinking TOO much

I have been thinking too much today. Thinking about my journey as a human being and the hurdles I've been through. One of those 'Woe is me' kinda days. I know myself pretty well by now. I know that I muddle through each day to the next just to get through. I know what excites me and what doesn't. I know who has hurt me and who hasn't. I know that's why I don't let people in for very long. I know that's why I feel so alone. I'm tired of putting my trust in people who are merely a facade. I miss my grandfather terribly. My best friend.

Grief is a solitary journey. No one but you knows how great the hurt is. No one but you can know the gaping hole left in your life when someone you know has died. And no one but you can mourn the silence that was once filled with laughter and song. It is the nature of love and death to touch every person in a totally unique way   ~  Unknown