New Testimony to Share :)

It's been awhile since I blogged! I've been maintaining my weight loss, and I've moved on to accomplishing other life goals. My husband and I started taking a course together back in September called Crown Financial Ministries. It is through our church. For those of you who are not familiar with Crown Financial, it is a bible-based course about handling your finances God's way. Going into the course, I already knew quite a bit about God's plan for our finances, because I read a book some years ago which was actually called 'God's Plan For Your Finances'. However, my practical application of God's plans for my finances had basically gone down the toilet. Though I've always been good with money (my father is a stock-broker, who always instilled the "pay yourself first" motto), I entered into a marriage with a shopaholic. After 12 years of marriage, I grew tired of butting heads and I think we've both kind of met somewhere in the middle with our attitudes about money. I went from being a complete tightwad to living this free-spirit, willy-nilly kind of lifestyle and very little regard to money. Since my husband and I both work, we check our balance frequently and it seems that there is always money there. We got into a really bad habit of spending it, though, before paying the bills :-0. Now I'm not a big spender, but I do buy my children whatever they need. And sometimes they 'need' things all at once, such as soccer dues (x2), uniforms, dance dues, lunch money, haircuts (x2), ... the list goes on and on, but you catch my drift. And another priority in our home is always groceries. I will say that I do and have always shopped at WalMart for groceries to save money, and I still believe that this is the most effective. I buy mostly WalMart brand products, which I find is cheaper than going to Kroger or Food Lion and using coupons. But our bills always came last. And when it was bill-time, we would get stuck picking and choosing (juggling) which ones to pay. We grew tired of living that way, because it was very stressful.
 
So... we made the decision to enter into this committment of taking the class together. I will admit that, at first, it was a bit of a pain... you know, ANOTHER thing we have to do during the week, another thing to add to our already over-loaded schedule.... And the homework for the class is no joke. You have to read the Bible, answer questions, and memorize Scripture. Most of the information started to come back to me as I began to do the work. What I had forgotten over the course of the past few years is that 100% of everything I have is GOD's and not mine. It's his money, and I am supposed to be a good steward of HIS money. Well, that was tough one to swallow, even though I'd heard it before, I'm not going to lie. I am also being very honest when I say that I've struggled with tithing throughout the years. I've done it inconsistently in the last year, even though I've experienced huge blessings from doing it consistently in the past. It's like that line in that Christian song, "I throw a 20 in the plate, but never give til it hurts" (Matthew West). After completing the lesson on tithing and giving, I felt really convicted to start tithing consistently again. As I said, I've done this in the past, and it was a real source of tension between my husband and I at the time. He has come a long way spiritually since then. So, with his blessing, I woke up that Monday morning (payday) and immediately got a money order for 10% of my income. My reason for getting a money order was so that I did not spend it and was not able to tear it up. I also wrote the name of the church on it so that I would not be able to cash it. I stuck it on our refrigerator for my husband and I to see and to pray about it.

Now I have to admit, I was not a happy camper. God says to give cheerfully, not begrudgingly. But I just kept looking at that money order, thinking, "that's grocery money", or "that would have paid such-n-such bill". I began to worry over it, which God says not to do. He wants us to trust Him. And to test Him. After taking that money out and setting it aside, I paid our bills like a responsible adult. The wee hours of the next morning, I was awakened by a bone-chilling nightmare about Satan. It was so real, and quite disturbing. As a matter of fact, it stuck with me for the entire day. The next day, we only had $66 left in our account. This was TWO days after I got paid! NOT COOL! I was used to having much more money (but what I didn't realize is that I was also used to not having the bills paid, either). That night, I went to my Crown Financial class and shared with my fellow classmates what I had done and how worried I was feeling. I told them about my nightmare, and they confirmed what I already thought; Satan was trying to attack me, because I was trying to obey the Lord. A classmate encouraged me to just Trust and Test the Lord, and that's what I decided to do. I figured, at least the bills are paid. We DO have money in savings, if I need to transfer that over to cover the low balance...

The following day, I had an appointment with one of my mentally ill clients. She happens to be bipolar and by far my most difficult client. I prayed in the car on the way to her house for God to give me the words and the wisdom to reach her that day. It ended up being one of the best sessions we have ever had. And i was able to reach my client with the gospel. I feel that that was God's blessing to me for being obedient to Him. This was Thursday, and we only had $46 left in our account. We had ourselves on a complete spending FREEZE. But I trusted God, and I also knew that my husband was getting paid the very next day, and we were going to be OK!

Now for the big praise report... Friday morning, I woke up and immediately checked our bank balance. I wanted to be SURE my husband's paycheck was in there! Imagine my surprise when I saw that there was nearly $6,000 in our checking account. Ok, so we went from $46 to $6,000 overnight?!?! I believe I started shaking, crying, and praising God so fast and hard some might say I was speaking in tongues . Not only had my husband gotten paid, he had also received a huge bonus. God knew that he needed to act, and fast... and that is exactly what He did. What is even more amazing is that my husband immediately agreed with me that this was an act of God and that we needed to tithe 10% of what He had provided for us.

My purpose of this story is not to be boastful or bragging, but to share that if you are faithful to the Lord, then He will be faithful to you. We put the bonus money into our savings account to help us pay for some major house repairs, nothing to be jealous of. We are just so thankful for the Lord's provision and His perfect timing. We continue to live paycheck to paycheck like most of the country. But I will tell you one thing, we will be tithing from now on, not to just receive blessings, but to give God a fraction of what is 100% His anyway, and to prove our faithfulness to Him. God is so good...

Super Excited!

I'm on my way to the gym, but just wanted to comment quickly that I found a box FULL of "skinny" clothes in my attic that I'd forgotten about (because it's been so long since I could wear any of them)! It was really exciting to go through them, because they're all super cute surf brands and I'm just so happy to have clothes that fit! THANK YOU, previously skinny self! That is all ;) 

122 pounds and STILL losing :)

Yes, I can disclose my weight now because I'm proud to be 122 pounds. I've never told my weight to anyone (other than my doctor, and against my will) I've lost 46 lbs, so you do the math. Let me just say, I'm enjoying this new, thinner me. I am now comfortable in a bikini and I wear them to the pool all the time! I've got a couple 'skinny' pics to post so you can see the results. I only wanted to get down to 125 lbs, but I'm still losing... I have a little flab here and there that I'd like to eliminate, so I guess I'll keep at it. Who knows, maybe I'll get down to 115...

 

40 lbs lost!

Hello all, the previous post, which I posted last night, was actually a draft from last week which wouldn't post for some odd reason. So it's now a week later, and I have to tell you... I am officially FORTY pounds lighter now than I was in January. I am only 4 lbs away from my ultimate goal, and honestly, I think I could stand to lose another 10 lbs. I now own 4 bikinis. Remember, I said I wanted my biggest problem to be, "What color bikini should I wear today?" I now own the hot pink one, a black one, a green and white polka dotted one, and  a reddish orange one with beading. Two of those are from many years ago; good thing I held onto them, huh?

I still struggle with self confidence while wearing them, though. It is like when obese ppl lose a bunch of weight and they still feel fat. I feel that way, not that I was ever really obese. I just struggle to feel comfortable in my new body. I think it's because I only see the 'trouble areas' and can't wrap my head around how much better I look than I used to. I need to think more positively. I'm also a very modest person, so I'm not one to strut around in a skimpy bikini. I sit in my chair at the pool as lonnnnnnnnnnnnng as I can stand it, and then I get up and jump in the water. Now that I've gotten a base tan and have had the bikini on a few times, I'm starting to feel a little more comfortable with the whole thing. It's just new. But exciting!

I worked out this morning- did my step aerobics class, and I'm about to go do some P90X Shoulders and Arms. One of my faves, because it's not too hard, but it really makes your arms look great! Also going to do Ab Ripper X, another one of my faves, because it's so short but so effective. Hope everyone else is doing well and enjoying their summer so far!

Skinny :)

Hello World! I have not had any time lately whatsoever to blog. I never posted about the final days of P90X, but I finished it up, and I've been enjoying my new body a LOT. I wore a bikini to the pool for the first time in 5 years... what a great feeling. Now i'm just trying to maintain my weight loss and I only have 5 lbs to go to get to the ultimate goal. 

Life has been extremely busy, like to the point that I can't catch my breath. Work is ever changing and I've been given a new case as well as a lot more paperwork to do. On top of that we had family visitors, my daughter's dance recital, and we adopted a new dog. Yes, I went for it! She is wonderfully sweet :) I am so worn out and ready for all the extracurricular activities to end so I can start to relax a little. I was literally grocery shopping in WalMart last night at 10:00 PM because it was the only time I had to do it. I had to shop for nearly 2 weeks worth of groceries, and we were out of EVERYTHING because I hadn't had time to go in so long. It was midnight by the time it was all said and done.

I don't remember life being this busy before, but I know it always has been. Well, maybe not quite this busy. 

This has been a nutty week. I've been working on arranging summer care for my children, something which is very important but very expensive. I am fortunate that I have a mother-in-law who lives right next door and only works part time. She watches them for free, and i just provide lunches and money for outings. I used to be able to be at home 2 days a week during the summer to take the kids to the pool, but my clientele and workload have both grown. Now I pay my friend Beth to keep them on those days, and her kids are my kids' best friends, so that works out great. I signed them up for VBS at our church and a week at an art day camp. They've been to both every year and love them. My work is also offering a summer camp which is pretty convenient because i can take them to work with me, have lunch with them, go on field trips with them, etc. Then there's my mom, who takes them for a couple different weeks each summer, to let them play and swim at Smith Mountain Lake. So, I guess I shouldn't be worried, because I seem to have a lot of different options. I shouldn't feel guilty, because they have a lot of fun. I do miss the days that I could stay at home with them. I did that while they were little and those days were precious, although financially difficult at times! I wish upon a star that I didn't have to be a working Mom, but that's just the way it is. It sucks to be smart sometimes. Stupid master's degree.

Hehe. Just kidding. I love my job, or at least I did love my job until very recently. I've been with the agency for a little over 3 years now, I just don't like change very much and kinda wish things would go back to the way they used to be when I worked 3 days a week as opposed to all the friggin time.

People just drain you, you know? Especially mentally ill people. And by that i don't necessarily mean the clients. Some of the agency staff are pretty mental, too. I hope they're not reading this. There are just a lot of different personalities and dynamics. The more I'm there, the more information I learn about others, and the less I want to know! I still mind my own business, do my job, and go home. Client work is actually my favorite. Today was a little rough, because my first appointment (new client) didn't want our time to end, or so it seemed. My second client was short and sweet. But then I had to take my third client to the doctor for a battery of tests because she's been very ill. COPD and a chain smoker-not good. That appointment ended up taking up hours of my time. Not that I mind, because she asks very little of me and gives a lot back in return, but it's just hard when you have a certain place to be at a certain time.

I know no one is reading this. It's just making me feel better to get my thoughts organized and out where I can see them. Things are a little jumbled up in my brain because there are so many different thoughts happening at the same time. 

Back to the topic of weight loss, I do feel awesome. I can tell that some of my muscle tone has faded, however, because I'm no longer doing the P90X workouts on a regular basis. I just haven't had much time for working out and so when i get to, I go to the gym and burn as many calories as I can that way. I'm doing great with my diet, and i think that's what is helping me to keep the weight down.

Good night world. I have to be up EARLY for another client visit, like super duper early, like I-never-get-up-this-early-for-anyone-but-I-will-for-you-this-once-since-you-are-a-new-client early!!!

P90X, Week 13, Days 1-4

P90X? What's that?! Nah, just kidding. I'm still alive and TRYING to stay on track, but I have gotten a bit distracted this week. I fell in love with a dog at the pound, and I'm in obsessed mode where all I can think about is this dog. She stood out to me because she looks like a blonde version of our Rottweiler Abby, who died in Sept. She was still at the pound as of 2:00 today, but someone else had an application to adopt her (which was approved), so I've been waiting it out to see if they're going to come get her or not. I don't want to get my hopes up too much.

So, I'm in the 13th and final week of P90X. This week is mostly about stretching and doing Yoga. I've been extremely lazy and when I have worked out, I've not stuck to the routine... I did step aerobics, Brazilian Butt Lift, Ab Ripper X, to name a few. I have also been on the eliptical. Anything to burn as many calories as I can in a short period of time. I'm just really over P90X, no offense to the company or to Tony Horton, or to anyone who loves the program, because it absolutely worked for me... but 13 weeks is a long time. I'm ready to move on and try other things. And I'll come back to the P90X videos now and again, working my favorites into my workout routine.  I miss going to the gym and being among my meathead people. i miss taking my headphones and watching movies and television while i burn close to 1000 calories.

That's about all the news. Hope everyone is doing great!

P90X, Week 12, Days 6 & 7

I wrote a really long blog earlier, but to my dismay, the computer cut itself off and I lost my entire entry. It does that sometimes :( Days 6 and 7 of Week 12 did happen, I just have been super busy and unable to blog about it. Day 7 was Rest and Stretch, so I opted for "Rest", but with this being dance recital weekend, I ran around like a chicken with my head cut off... not to mention everything else that has been going on lately, such as having a plumber come out for a major leak, having a new security system put into our house, and cleaning the whole house for my parents to come into town. The recital involved a long dress rehearsal Thurs night and 2 nights of back to back recitals. My daughter was in 5 numbers this year, and I was responsible for her 5 costumes, plus 5 more costumes for my best friend's daughter. My best friend was out of town on a business trip, so I offered to help out, not knowing what I was getting myself into... 2 girls, 10 costumes, five back to back dance numbers.... oh my. I am tired. I lost 3 pounds in 3 days due to all of the running around I had to do.

Week 13 should have started yesterday, but I am going to be getting a late start. I will hopefully get back on track tomorrow. I've lost 37 lbs since January 1, which is really hard for me to wrap my head around. I never knew I could lose that much weight, or that I needed to... I only have 6 more lbs to be at my goal weight. If I reach my goal weight, I'll re-evaluate my situation and see if I need to set a new goal. There are still some areas that I would like to work on.

Happy Mother's Day. Mine was very nice, with the recital and then church today with my mother. Both of my children sang today in church. Then my Mom took me out shopping for a new coffee pot--- mine has been broken for some time--- much to my surprise, she bought me a Keurig, which was pretty expensive. I've been wanting one for some time now, but never expected anyone to buy me one, especially not my mom, and especially not on Mother's Day! She also bought me a new clock for my kitchen and an oregano plant. I gave her a really cool, decorative hummingbird feeder. Hummingbirds are her favorite. I also got her some little Yankee candles. It was so nice just to see her and spend time with her on Mother's Day.  I feel very blessed to both have and be a mother. I couldn't ask for a better mom or for better children. I thank God for them every day.