40 lbs lost!

Hello all, the previous post, which I posted last night, was actually a draft from last week which wouldn't post for some odd reason. So it's now a week later, and I have to tell you... I am officially FORTY pounds lighter now than I was in January. I am only 4 lbs away from my ultimate goal, and honestly, I think I could stand to lose another 10 lbs. I now own 4 bikinis. Remember, I said I wanted my biggest problem to be, "What color bikini should I wear today?" I now own the hot pink one, a black one, a green and white polka dotted one, and  a reddish orange one with beading. Two of those are from many years ago; good thing I held onto them, huh?

I still struggle with self confidence while wearing them, though. It is like when obese ppl lose a bunch of weight and they still feel fat. I feel that way, not that I was ever really obese. I just struggle to feel comfortable in my new body. I think it's because I only see the 'trouble areas' and can't wrap my head around how much better I look than I used to. I need to think more positively. I'm also a very modest person, so I'm not one to strut around in a skimpy bikini. I sit in my chair at the pool as lonnnnnnnnnnnnng as I can stand it, and then I get up and jump in the water. Now that I've gotten a base tan and have had the bikini on a few times, I'm starting to feel a little more comfortable with the whole thing. It's just new. But exciting!

I worked out this morning- did my step aerobics class, and I'm about to go do some P90X Shoulders and Arms. One of my faves, because it's not too hard, but it really makes your arms look great! Also going to do Ab Ripper X, another one of my faves, because it's so short but so effective. Hope everyone else is doing well and enjoying their summer so far!