40 lbs lost!

Hello all, the previous post, which I posted last night, was actually a draft from last week which wouldn't post for some odd reason. So it's now a week later, and I have to tell you... I am officially FORTY pounds lighter now than I was in January. I am only 4 lbs away from my ultimate goal, and honestly, I think I could stand to lose another 10 lbs. I now own 4 bikinis. Remember, I said I wanted my biggest problem to be, "What color bikini should I wear today?" I now own the hot pink one, a black one, a green and white polka dotted one, and  a reddish orange one with beading. Two of those are from many years ago; good thing I held onto them, huh?

I still struggle with self confidence while wearing them, though. It is like when obese ppl lose a bunch of weight and they still feel fat. I feel that way, not that I was ever really obese. I just struggle to feel comfortable in my new body. I think it's because I only see the 'trouble areas' and can't wrap my head around how much better I look than I used to. I need to think more positively. I'm also a very modest person, so I'm not one to strut around in a skimpy bikini. I sit in my chair at the pool as lonnnnnnnnnnnnng as I can stand it, and then I get up and jump in the water. Now that I've gotten a base tan and have had the bikini on a few times, I'm starting to feel a little more comfortable with the whole thing. It's just new. But exciting!

I worked out this morning- did my step aerobics class, and I'm about to go do some P90X Shoulders and Arms. One of my faves, because it's not too hard, but it really makes your arms look great! Also going to do Ab Ripper X, another one of my faves, because it's so short but so effective. Hope everyone else is doing well and enjoying their summer so far!

Skinny :)

Hello World! I have not had any time lately whatsoever to blog. I never posted about the final days of P90X, but I finished it up, and I've been enjoying my new body a LOT. I wore a bikini to the pool for the first time in 5 years... what a great feeling. Now i'm just trying to maintain my weight loss and I only have 5 lbs to go to get to the ultimate goal. 

Life has been extremely busy, like to the point that I can't catch my breath. Work is ever changing and I've been given a new case as well as a lot more paperwork to do. On top of that we had family visitors, my daughter's dance recital, and we adopted a new dog. Yes, I went for it! She is wonderfully sweet :) I am so worn out and ready for all the extracurricular activities to end so I can start to relax a little. I was literally grocery shopping in WalMart last night at 10:00 PM because it was the only time I had to do it. I had to shop for nearly 2 weeks worth of groceries, and we were out of EVERYTHING because I hadn't had time to go in so long. It was midnight by the time it was all said and done.

I don't remember life being this busy before, but I know it always has been. Well, maybe not quite this busy. 

This has been a nutty week. I've been working on arranging summer care for my children, something which is very important but very expensive. I am fortunate that I have a mother-in-law who lives right next door and only works part time. She watches them for free, and i just provide lunches and money for outings. I used to be able to be at home 2 days a week during the summer to take the kids to the pool, but my clientele and workload have both grown. Now I pay my friend Beth to keep them on those days, and her kids are my kids' best friends, so that works out great. I signed them up for VBS at our church and a week at an art day camp. They've been to both every year and love them. My work is also offering a summer camp which is pretty convenient because i can take them to work with me, have lunch with them, go on field trips with them, etc. Then there's my mom, who takes them for a couple different weeks each summer, to let them play and swim at Smith Mountain Lake. So, I guess I shouldn't be worried, because I seem to have a lot of different options. I shouldn't feel guilty, because they have a lot of fun. I do miss the days that I could stay at home with them. I did that while they were little and those days were precious, although financially difficult at times! I wish upon a star that I didn't have to be a working Mom, but that's just the way it is. It sucks to be smart sometimes. Stupid master's degree.

Hehe. Just kidding. I love my job, or at least I did love my job until very recently. I've been with the agency for a little over 3 years now, I just don't like change very much and kinda wish things would go back to the way they used to be when I worked 3 days a week as opposed to all the friggin time.

People just drain you, you know? Especially mentally ill people. And by that i don't necessarily mean the clients. Some of the agency staff are pretty mental, too. I hope they're not reading this. There are just a lot of different personalities and dynamics. The more I'm there, the more information I learn about others, and the less I want to know! I still mind my own business, do my job, and go home. Client work is actually my favorite. Today was a little rough, because my first appointment (new client) didn't want our time to end, or so it seemed. My second client was short and sweet. But then I had to take my third client to the doctor for a battery of tests because she's been very ill. COPD and a chain smoker-not good. That appointment ended up taking up hours of my time. Not that I mind, because she asks very little of me and gives a lot back in return, but it's just hard when you have a certain place to be at a certain time.

I know no one is reading this. It's just making me feel better to get my thoughts organized and out where I can see them. Things are a little jumbled up in my brain because there are so many different thoughts happening at the same time. 

Back to the topic of weight loss, I do feel awesome. I can tell that some of my muscle tone has faded, however, because I'm no longer doing the P90X workouts on a regular basis. I just haven't had much time for working out and so when i get to, I go to the gym and burn as many calories as I can that way. I'm doing great with my diet, and i think that's what is helping me to keep the weight down.

Good night world. I have to be up EARLY for another client visit, like super duper early, like I-never-get-up-this-early-for-anyone-but-I-will-for-you-this-once-since-you-are-a-new-client early!!!